Well sure, why not.

First real blogging post in well over a year. Followed Beth over after she had been here a while.

Hopefully blogging will help me be less depressed, because lately, I have been insanely down. It isn't really like me, I don't think I have been this down since I was 15 or 16. That's like 10 years.

(Well, maybe more like 5 or so years, I think I was pretty depressed in the middle of my college career too?)

Anyway, hopefully it helps. I'm not sure if it is the things going on with Beth (where I am not always 100% where we stand, I think we are together, but sometimes it feels as if I am just a mover, a chauffeur, or a provider of other services and that is it. Other times, I feel as if things are doing a bit better.

Might be on my end, but who knows. Hopefully things begin to get better again, because I want to feel like I used to when I was with her. Back when the world stopped whenever we were together. Now, the world goes too fast, time goes too fast, and it isn't very nice.

Post Post Post. Just regurgitating what is going on in my mind.

We shall see what today brings. I'm going to watch some hockey, and see if Beth does want to come over. I know I'll have to go drive to Potsdam to pick her up, but...why not? At least I'll be able to spend more than just an hour or two with her (provided she doesn't hide on her computer like she had been when she came over here last month).

Then back to Kindergarten Monday. Hooray?